Daydreams|Nightmares|Reality

Seeing a grown man cry is heart breaking. But when you see that its tears of joy, tears of hope as he thought that his live was over, is heart warming. A man punctured his lungs, broke his ribs, had a hip surgery, and messed up his spine, thinking that he would never have the strength to get up out of bed again. But he finally got the strength to prop himself up and sit off the side of his bed to see outside his window, which he hasn’t in a couple of weeks, as he has been fighting the fear of getting hurt again. The tears in his eyes showed how grateful he was to still be living, and how much he took the little things in life for granted. Just being able to get out of bed, and looking out the window made him realize that .. Its not until something tragic has happened to you or a close one that you come to realize that life was given to you as a gift and something to be grateful for everyday.

I came to realize that being a physical therapist is something I really want to do. You become active with patients that doctors and nurses don’t even do. You see their progress. And to see the rewards of putting a smile on someone’s face and give them hope about life is something that I want. It’s something that I want to strive for. 

Needed that reality check, finally. Now I have a reason to stop hoping and wishing.

Looking at peoples pictures from Thanksgiving, how they’re with their families, and with their significant other … and its an interracial relationship … I’m so jealous that your family is so open and accepting to that. You guys are very lucky and blessed. Me, not so much.

What’d you do to me? Cause I can’t seem to shake you off. 

You hide the pain and you just deal with it. Cause sometimes that’s the only thing you can do. 

So many whys; Not enough answers. 

The Mountains Will Crumble and The Temples Will Fall, But Man Has Very Little of It All

What is it? ….

Time.

When I stepped out of my apartment in the morning to go to school, I just had a feeling inside of me that today was going to be a good day. And I looked at the clear blue sky, the people around me as I was walking, and said to myself why shouldn’t I smile today? Today is such a beautiful day, nothing can go wrong. So I kept that mentality all day. But anyways, on my way home from school, I crossed paths with this man who was on the sidewalk near the muni station in a wheelchair holding a sign up and scrubby looking. I’ve passed this man several times before on my way to school or on my way home from school. I had my headphones on but I was able to hear him say, “Hey, how’s it going?” so I replied “I’m good, how are you?” And I approached him. Now who would have ever known that this man had a masters in physics? I wouldn’t until we started to conversate more and he asked me do you know what the most important thing in life is? And he said E=MC^2. I didn’t get it at first but I think I know now. Then he asked if I liked riddles and I said sure. He gave me riddles that picked my brain out and I was more intrigued in this person as our conversation went on. During our riddles, a woman randomly came up and asked the man if he wanted some yogurt. As she left he then looked at me and said “That’s what I’m talking about, that’s why I put ‘Any Kindness :)’ on my sign, I’m not asking for money or food but she gave me something, do you know what I mean?” I thought I did but I guess I was wrong. He said, “No. You don’t. It’s not who you are, it’s what you are. And that kindness in your heart, you have to let that burst honey” as he put his hand over my heart and gave me a kiss on my forehead to bless me. Right there, it struck me. I almost got teary eyed because I know I wasn’t just speaking to any stranger on the street. He told me, “Did you know we were meant to meet today?” And in my head I couldn’t deny that I had a feeling that today was going to be a good day and I believe this is why. Then as I was about to leave he kindly asked, “Honey, will you come visit me again? Will you?” And I replied back, “Yes, I’ll visit you again soon.” Then I left with this feeling I can’t describe, but it felt good. It took just 30 minutes to change my life and my perspective about … well, a lot of things. 

Timing was everything. I could have had my earphones on blast and not have heard him, I could have missed my muni, I could have not been in such a good mood to talk to a stranger, or if I wasn’t taking physics right now he probably wouldn’t have gotten my attention when he said he had a masters in physics and we wouldn’t have gotten the conversation we ended up with, the endless possibilities. 

Now as I think back on my encounter with him I started thinking of this ‘idea’ though it may not make sense but bare with me .. Well here it is ..

The most important thing in life is Einstein’s equation: E=MC^2, energy. Each one of us is a child of God. He lives in each and everyone one of us just like how you would have a piece of your parents inside of you (genetically). But I see it as God lives in us through energy. Energy is neither created nor destroyed, it is only transferred. If you transfer that energy within yourself through the kindness of your heart, through Jesus who lives within you, you may be able to transfer that energy, that source of light onto someone else and open (or you can think of it as activating) that person’s energy within so that they can be able to find Jesus within themselves whom they have shadowed in the darkness. By letting that energy burst out from within, people may find a little bit of Jesus in each other and this transferring of Jesus’ energy will flow through and within us and others.

Again, What does man have very little of? Time. So, my question to you is, what are you going to do with your energy with so very little time? 

I wish I knew what your heart was feeling

To make it easier for you and me

So much on my mind, I don’t know how it all fits in my brain

I need to stop thinking that there’s any chance that a Prince Charming exists in this world. 

There’s no challenge that you can’t face if you’re not willing to try.